Be Afraid & Then Do it Anyways


When I started this blog, I was afraid. I was afraid it would be stupid; it wouldn’t make any sense. When I wrote, I was having trouble conveying the message I wanted to say. I had this brilliant idea in my head of how I would help other people change their mindset and therefore help them change their life for the better, but when I wrote it felt empty and forced. It felt like I wasn’t making an impact as I didn’t have a following at all. But one thing about mastery is we all suck when we start. It’s not about being naturally good at something, it’s about believing in something and going for it. I have gotten many compliments on the way I right, but I’ve been writing since I could write. I started my first journal when I was 6 years old, and when I was 8 years old I was regularly journaling. Basically, I’ve kept a journal ever since I could start form sentences.



Life called for expression, and writing was my medium. I do identify as an artist, I draw, I paint, but the one art that calls me above them all is to write. It’s the one thing I do almost every day, and have been for years. But when my started this blog in Aug 2019 I didn’t stay consistent. I didn’t commit b/c I didn’t see results, and I didn’t practice. Short story, I got discourage and I quit.


Mastery is about consistency and practice. The 10,000 hour rule is real. Sure, I’ve journaled regardless if I had posted on the blog or not. But I must be consistent with my posts if I am to make a difference I envision making. The reason it felt awkward and forced was b/c it was new. I was trying to run, when I needed to learn how to walk first.


But life loves to teach you, that despite what you think should be happening, this is what is actually happening. Proceed to take another large bite of humble pie. You suck, and that’s normal. You suck, and you have to keep on going. I read a post (or watched a podcast) by James Altucher, and he said, “I’m just trying to be 1% better than I was yesterday, because 365 days of better 1% starts to compound into something amazing.” Now, this coming from the man who lost his fortune not once, but twice! And he will accredit his lost to an immature way of thinking and being. Warren Buffet has a said “a man who cannot control his emotions, cannot control his money”, and that has rang true in my life. I have been trying to start a successful, profitable business for 5 years, but I could not master my emotions. I would fail, something would go wrong, and I would give up. In the last year alone, I have had 3 failed attempted to start a viable business.



But remember, there are no failures if you learn the lesson(s). I’ve learned many things in the last 5 years about myself, and each year I become a little more refined in my efforts. I restructure the way I move, and have become more disciplined, and spiritual in my growth. I love that soccer player who said “it only took me 17 years to become an overnight success”. It is true, many do not see the effort put in at home, the effort you put in when no-one is watching, yet, the universe knows. The spirit of effort, energy, and belief is listening, and the more I develop the more I start to understand that there are no accidents in God’s world.


Karma is real, and those unfortunate events do happen in our lives, but our life as a whole is the accumulation of the way we conduct ourselves in this reality. It is the average of a life time, not 6 months or a year, but an entire lifetime. Yes, we can shift and change direction whenever we decide but the more different we want to become from what we are now, the more energy and effort we have to put in. The bigger the dreams, the more sacrifice. Which leads me to New Year’s Resolutions.


I used to hate New Year’s Resolutions. I used to think they were made only to be broken by the lazy, the weak, the undisciplined. It was only when I started to do my New Year's Resolutions in the middle of the year (before my birthday) I changed me mind. New Year’s Resolutions are great for redefining your goals and aspirations. To boost them, to revive them. This year I tried something different.



Steve Harvey said write down 300 things that you want in your life, and at the end of the year, see if 10% or 30 of them were accomplished. He also said it would be hard to get through the list, and it was. It took me two days and about 2-3 hours to finish it and man, it was tough. But no lie, as soon as I wrote it down within the week, two things came off the list, and I was amazed. And one of the two things came from someone else, I didn't even have to get it myself. It changed my whole perceptive around what we want, and how to get it, that attraction is real, and be careful for what you wish for. This motivates you to truly think about the things you want, and WHY you want them. Then, I did a vision board with my friends on New Year’s Eve. That’s right, I wasn’t drinking or partying, I was with a small group of like-minded people creating their dreams, striving for self development and growth.


Vision boards engage something called the Reticular Activating System, or the filter in which your brain processes mass amounts of information. A vision board put up somewhere you can see it every day activates this filter to find those things for you. There is real science in Vision boards, and if you don’t believe me, Oprah used to do vision boards! It was enough to peak my curiosity. So, here I go in another life experiment, seeing, searching for ways to be progressive and grow. Putting in the work, and having the faith that my effort, although seemingly scattered, will come into fruition. Who would have thought a science lover like me would be writing about faith in the unknown on Jan 1, 2022, but here I am. I love that science, aka quantum physics, and spirituality are finally coming together. Where energy, us, influences, reality, the spiritual world. It is truly an honor to get to be alive during the era of the informational age, or what I like to call the wild wild west of the evolution of the internet, but that will involve a whole other conversation at later date.

For now, you wonderful Seeking Bees of creation, please share your New Year’s Resolutions, Goals, and Dreams with me! Till then, remember, that you too can


BEE THE CHANGE OVER TIME!