Break Through, Not Break Down



Monday, I didn't wake up at 4am. I was beating myself up but finally I said, you know what, I am human, and I can try again. It's now Wednesday, and I've been sticking to my plan. Something that’s been hard for me to learn is, getting better at making mistakes. In the past, I have beat myself up for making mistakes. I was a bully to myself, but no more!

I made a mistake, but I tried again, and here I am, awake and writing this blog. I've been faced with another challenge, I had to commit to $100/month service in this online marketing business, in order to get it started. I’ve been dragging my feet. It’s a risk, and the chances are I’m going to fail, but this time, I’m going to learn as much as I can, and take it with me. I spent $600 on this course, and now I have to invest in a webpage/funnel service. And there will be more startup costs, but that’s what business is about, it’s about taking risks


Definition of Entrepreneur- a person who organizes and operates a business or businesses, taking on greater than normal financial risks in order to do so.

I’m grateful I get to take this chance, that I get to try to succeed. I’m grateful that I get to learn about online business with some guidance.


It’s not easy. It’s not easy waking up at 4am. It’s not easy working on this course in the morning, terrified that I’m going to fail. It’s not easy when you don’t know what’s going to happen, but you have to act anyways. You have to take the leap anyways.


I’m not going to lie, I want to complain, and I’m doing my best not to. I know that words are real, and they put out an energy, and I have to actively work on being positive and progressive. I have to put energy into keeping a good attitude. It takes action, hope, belief, hard work, taking risks, and much more in order to get ahead. I have been tapping at the glass ceiling for years, but I believe that I’m about to breakthrough. I learned this in a kundalini session one time, and the instructor said “we’re breaking through, not breaking down”. I say that to myself a lot lately. Breakthrough, not break down.


Monday-Friday, waking up at 4am and coming home from work at 6pm only to eat, wash dishes, pack clothes for work, and go to bed by 8pm is no joke. It starts to feel like all you are doing is working, which I am, but I’m doing it b/c I believe in something better. I want to believe that I can create a better life for myself. I want to believe that I can work hard for the life that I truly want. I am willing to make the upfront sacrifices. I am willing to do what it takes. Let me share with you, one of my many stories of tenacity.


When I was starting as a freshman in high school, I was determined to get into college and create a better life for myself. I woke up at 6am went to bed at 12midnight, and did this Monday-Friday. And I achieved my goal to be the 1# top student in my class. I had the highest GPA my freshmen year, and I also had dyslexia. I was not a fast reader, and my retention/recall was lower than 90% (82-88%), I had to use every moment of free time studying to get A’s, and so, I did. But, I achieved my goal to go to college, so, I know that when I put my mind to something, it can be done. This is what an average day looked like for me.


6am- wake up- Ride bike to school 3 miles

6:30- Cross Country practice

School

3:30pm-4:30pm - Marching Band

4:30-5:30pm- Track Practice

5:30-6pm- Ride home

6pm-6:30pm- Feed and train my lamb for FFA

6:30pm-7pm- Practice trumpet

7-8pm- cook and eat dinner

8pm-12midnight- Study

Repeat


This is close to what my day looked like everyday during my Freshman of high school.



So, I am no stranger to hard work. The dream is different, but in some ways they are still the same. School is work, and practice is now my side hustle. My current mentor told me that life is about the marathon, not the sprint, and I’m trying to find my pace. But for now, I will continue to push

forward as I learn to move towards my dreams. Right now, I am creating momentum, and I’m so grateful I get to share my journey with you. I’d love to hear about your personal journey, please email me at beechangeot@gmail.com


And remember that you too…


Can Bee The Change Over Time!